[ he'd been expecting the name, bracing himself for it, but all the preparation in the world still wouldn't have stopped the electric shock that surges down his spine and through his veins at the mere sound of it, leaving every inch of his skin tingling and his hair standing on end. dainsleif. it echoes in his head, opening a door he thought he'd long locked shut.
he remembers. of course he does. no matter how much he lies to himself that he's left that part of him behind to wither in the dust, the golden halls and spiraling towers of his homeland shine as vividly in his mind's eye now as the day he'd left - and there gleaming ever bright in the eyes of the starstruck youth he'd once been, the twilight sword. khaenri'ah had offered little protection for a child growing up, not even for one of royal blood - perhaps especially not then, in a land whose rulers were expected to be as merciless as the machines of war they'd built. in the midst of the ruthless politics and powerclimbing, dainsleif had been one of the few safe havens he could trust, a protective shelter away from the storm.
part of him now feels like that terrified child again - abandoned in a strange land with stranger people, lost in a time not his own with a burden so heavy he can't begin to comprehend it, desperate to reach out to this promise of familiarity and connection that has suddenly appeared like a beacon of hope. it is eclipsed, however, by the far larger part of him who has grown up under wind and sky rather than machine and ground, who has sworn himself in service of a city not his own, the part that whispers in his head that he cannot trust this man. forget the name, forget their history, forget the starry eyes brimming with an emotion that's far too human - there's only two ways he knows of to stave off the effects of their celestial curse, and one of them currently resides underneath his eyepatch. as for the other...well, abyssal power might allow someone to retain their intelligence, but it kills off something vital in them nonetheless.
(he doesn't allow himself to hope for the possibility that there might be a third option, that someone else might have escaped the curse with their humanity intact too. he's known for a long time now that miracles don't exist.) ]
A pleasure. I'm Kaeya, of the Ordo Favonius.
[ he emphasizes favonius slightly, watching dainleif's face carefully for any reaction to a khaenri'an now working for the city of the enemy. no point in hiding it anyway, not when it would only take a few hours asking around to determine who the strange foreigner with the unusual attire could possibly be. his smile does falter at the man's confession of his shaky memory - the delayed symptoms of the curse? a side effect to abyssal corruption? all the more reason to keep up his guard. ]
A faraway land, hm? You sound like someone straight out of a storybook. [ he props his chin on his hand, his other fingers tracing the rim of his glass idly as if this really is just a casual conversation with a stranger in a bar. ] Why the eagerness to return? Perhaps you'll enjoy taking in the sights and making new memories where you are now.
... Of the Ordo Favonius. [ his voice is nearly breathless, but deep down, he feels like he is suffocating. ] What an honour that must be.
[ the implication behind the emphasis is not lost on Dainsleif. for a brief moment, his expression becomes unreadable, difficult to decipher what it is that's going through his mind, but it only lasts as long as it takes for the initial shock to fade away. what replaces it is something much more subdued, something equal parts lost and melancholic, as if he understands where khaenri'ah's last hope now stands. does this mean that it was all for nothing? or is it more like, he's more alone than ever when it comes to finding a way to right the wrongs that the gods have caused?
it's been so long since he last saw anyone with the stars in their eyes like he does that he's struggling to make sense of what he's experiencing. he tries not to let the wistfulness shows but it might be too late to hide it. in the end, he chooses to look away, to focus on the drink that was offered earlier, but he doesn't miss the way that Kaeya's smile just faltered right there and then.
too many questions, so little answers. ]
It has been a long time since I last returned home. [ five hundred years and counting, but he dares not breathe that out loud. ] I've almost forgotten what it's like.
[ in a way, it's an attempt to hint at something — how long he's been alive, how long he's lived alone for so many years. he wonders if Kaeya's voice will falter if he manages to pick up all the little hints that Dainsleif continues to leave behind. ]
I wouldn't even know where to go if I were to continue wandering around. [ this time, he looks at Kaeya again. ] Of course, I'm open to suggestions, should you have any.
[ if he has any secrets left to uncover, they're in the shape of the man sitting next to him. ]
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he remembers. of course he does. no matter how much he lies to himself that he's left that part of him behind to wither in the dust, the golden halls and spiraling towers of his homeland shine as vividly in his mind's eye now as the day he'd left - and there gleaming ever bright in the eyes of the starstruck youth he'd once been, the twilight sword. khaenri'ah had offered little protection for a child growing up, not even for one of royal blood - perhaps especially not then, in a land whose rulers were expected to be as merciless as the machines of war they'd built. in the midst of the ruthless politics and powerclimbing, dainsleif had been one of the few safe havens he could trust, a protective shelter away from the storm.
part of him now feels like that terrified child again - abandoned in a strange land with stranger people, lost in a time not his own with a burden so heavy he can't begin to comprehend it, desperate to reach out to this promise of familiarity and connection that has suddenly appeared like a beacon of hope. it is eclipsed, however, by the far larger part of him who has grown up under wind and sky rather than machine and ground, who has sworn himself in service of a city not his own, the part that whispers in his head that he cannot trust this man. forget the name, forget their history, forget the starry eyes brimming with an emotion that's far too human - there's only two ways he knows of to stave off the effects of their celestial curse, and one of them currently resides underneath his eyepatch. as for the other...well, abyssal power might allow someone to retain their intelligence, but it kills off something vital in them nonetheless.
(he doesn't allow himself to hope for the possibility that there might be a third option, that someone else might have escaped the curse with their humanity intact too. he's known for a long time now that miracles don't exist.) ]
A pleasure. I'm Kaeya, of the Ordo Favonius.
[ he emphasizes favonius slightly, watching dainleif's face carefully for any reaction to a khaenri'an now working for the city of the enemy. no point in hiding it anyway, not when it would only take a few hours asking around to determine who the strange foreigner with the unusual attire could possibly be. his smile does falter at the man's confession of his shaky memory - the delayed symptoms of the curse? a side effect to abyssal corruption? all the more reason to keep up his guard. ]
A faraway land, hm? You sound like someone straight out of a storybook. [ he props his chin on his hand, his other fingers tracing the rim of his glass idly as if this really is just a casual conversation with a stranger in a bar. ] Why the eagerness to return? Perhaps you'll enjoy taking in the sights and making new memories where you are now.
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[ the implication behind the emphasis is not lost on Dainsleif. for a brief moment, his expression becomes unreadable, difficult to decipher what it is that's going through his mind, but it only lasts as long as it takes for the initial shock to fade away. what replaces it is something much more subdued, something equal parts lost and melancholic, as if he understands where khaenri'ah's last hope now stands. does this mean that it was all for nothing? or is it more like, he's more alone than ever when it comes to finding a way to right the wrongs that the gods have caused?
it's been so long since he last saw anyone with the stars in their eyes like he does that he's struggling to make sense of what he's experiencing. he tries not to let the wistfulness shows but it might be too late to hide it. in the end, he chooses to look away, to focus on the drink that was offered earlier, but he doesn't miss the way that Kaeya's smile just faltered right there and then.
too many questions, so little answers. ]
It has been a long time since I last returned home. [ five hundred years and counting, but he dares not breathe that out loud. ] I've almost forgotten what it's like.
[ in a way, it's an attempt to hint at something — how long he's been alive, how long he's lived alone for so many years. he wonders if Kaeya's voice will falter if he manages to pick up all the little hints that Dainsleif continues to leave behind. ]
I wouldn't even know where to go if I were to continue wandering around. [ this time, he looks at Kaeya again. ] Of course, I'm open to suggestions, should you have any.
[ if he has any secrets left to uncover, they're in the shape of the man sitting next to him. ]